Love, Peace & Respect.

2011-10-25T15:10:00.002+08:00

Do i look like as if i care that i don't have friends? NO. I'M NOT. & if you think you're one of those angelic type, then don't bitch about others! I BITCH about others. I can be whatever type of girl you call it! You name me! You don't like it?? THATS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM OKAY? & if you think i go around convincing others about the situation, that's your problem! Not happy? FUCKING FACE ME BITCH!

2011-08-29T18:07:00.002+08:00

I want to remember how you've made me laugh, and sometimes cry, and

i never want to forget how special & different you are. And how you

touch my heart in a way that no one else could.

2011-08-01T23:57:00.002+08:00

I'm strong enough right now to just let it go. Cause for every words that came out from your mouth, i can't stand it. I know where i stand & you, don't even need to say that. Now you can go with someone who have akhlak & the one you always wanted. (: I'm out of this. Disappointed. Yes i am.

To Love Her for Him

2011-07-09T18:13:00.000+08:00

Many people have been talking to me about marriage lately. I wonder why. I still remember this one occasion when a friend of mine asked,

"Lutfi, are you married?"

"What!? No! Do I look like I'm married?"

"Engaged?"

"No, I'm not. Why?"

"Why don't you get married?"

"Well now that you ask, marriage is not that simple for me. And you didn't answer my question."

"What's so difficult? You're an able man. Get married quick."

"Easier said than done, brother."

"Look Lutfi, I got married at the age of 27 and the first thing I thought was 'Why in the world didn't I get married sooner?'"

Laughs. OK, he might have a point. I mean, he's not the President for nothing.

Why is marriage not that easy for me? Surely, there are so many reasons why it's not easy. It shouldn't be easy for anyone! Why do you think marriage is considered as half of our deen? There is such a heavy weight on marriage in Islam such that it is so highly regarded by Allah in many narrations of our Prophet PBUH. Many people do not consider the implications of a pure relationship between a man and a woman in a marriage. That's why many of them end in divorce. What are the typical questions someone asks when considering marriage? Spouse? Money? Education? Job? Wedding? Guests? Food? And the list goes on. Material things.

How many people even ponder on the most essential points? And this is especially so for the man. When I inquire about a woman for marriage, I do not want to know what she should do for me, I want to know what I should do for her. In my opinion, marriage in Islam is not for satisfying my needs. It's not for me at all. It's for Allah. It's for Islam. It's for my wife. It's for my children. It's for my family. It's about responsibility. It's about providing love and care to another soul as Allah has commanded.

If I marry, I will ask my wife of nothing, except that she obeys Allah and His Messenger. For I know that on the Day of Judgement, I will bear the weight of her sins on my back if she doesn't. Islam says, what's mine is hers, what's hers is hers. Islam says, she will be rewarded with the good deeds that I do, and I will be punished for the bad deeds that she does. My wife in this life, is my wife in the next. Marriage is eternal and transcends death. A marriage for Allah's sake may bring me to Jannah, while a marriage based on anything else may bring me to Jahannam. It's more than just 'tying the knot'.

But Allah knows, I want to hold her hand and guide her when she is lost. I want to protect her when she is in danger. I want to be her crying shoulder and wipe away her tears when she is sad. I want to laugh at her jokes. I want to be patient and understanding with her when she is angry. I want to forgive herfaults when she makes a mistake. I want to accept her flaws and imperfectmemori hatiions. I want to be kind and gentle to her. I want to be her friend and companion. I want to be her guardian and supporter. I want tobe her teacher, leader and imam. I want to be the father of her children. I want to be there for her through sadness and sorrow, hardship and grief. I want to be there for her in happiness and ease. I want toplease her for the sake of Allah.

I want to show her compassion and affection like the Prophet PBUH, who used to show a great deal of affection towards his wives. Aisha reported that the Prophet would only enjoy his meals when she would sit next to him. They would drink from one cup and he would watch where Aisha would place her lips on the cup so that he could place his lips on the exact position. He would eat from a bone after she would eat from it, placing his mouth where she had eaten. The Prophet used to also help around the house. Aisha narrated, Prophet Muhammad used to stitch his clothes, milk the goats and help in the chores inside the house. I want to emulate our beloved Rasulullah SAW, and I know, this is why it isn't easy.

So ask yourself now, is marriage easy?

2011-04-27T09:03:00.002+08:00

The day that i first saw Mom, Dad & the world out there. But for every year when the day comes, i don't even think about it nor have any plans in mind for myself. For only one thing, i'm hoping for wishes from mummy & abah. Nothing else matter. As years goes by, i tried to understand the situation and i didn't expect too much from them. Cousins, soulmates & friends had been filling up the empty time that were left out. & i enjoyed it. (: Today, when i turn 19, i realize that i just need you both. I need you more then i need others. I need you both to go through my life together. Share the happiness & smile all day long with me. Abah, if only i can have you right here with me, hearing " Selamat ulang tahun anak abah. moga panjang umur, murah rezeki dan dilindunggi allah selalu. Ingat pesan abah, abah sayng nurdian!" it would be awesome! I miss you abah .. I really do .. I want you and mummy, together, watch me grow till i have my own family. (= Ya allah, lindunggi lah kedua org tua ku ya allah. Aku sayang dan masih memerlu kan mereka lagik ya allah ..

Anang - Separuh Jiwaku Pergi ( Official Video Clip )

2011-03-24T13:57:00.000+08:00

2011-02-10T23:31:00.001+08:00

Forgiveness is a promise not a feeling. When you forgive other people, you are making a promise not to use their past sin against them.

2011-01-17T14:54:00.002+08:00

So get your butts off me and him okay? There's no way i will leave him for you, fockers!

You know what "life" is ?? Go get one. You need it.

2011-01-11T00:04:00.003+08:00

Why would i stay when shit happened?? Cause i love him just the way i used to love you. He understand me more than you do. You gave shits, i waited and i decided to move on. Cause that's what you been wanting for. Now what? By telling me things like this, i could just leave what i have right now for you?? NO, Big NO NO. I love him, i love him more than anything. Though it's hurtful, still i'm not leaving. Just stop whatever you think you're doing. I'm so over you. & nothing will change that. To who ever that gonna read this, i'm sorry. I guess i wasn't strong enough to hold on to you anymore. (= I'm happy with whatever i have right now. I thought i can rely on you. I was wrong. I've made a wrong decision. I love my phatboi so much ...

2011-01-05T19:54:00.000+08:00

Never mine to begin with. (:

2011-01-04T13:36:00.001+08:00

The best date is to be with someone who can take you anywhere without touching anything but ONLY YOUR HEART.

2010-12-27T22:42:00.005+08:00

I prayed for him to give me kisses on my forehead and reads the Al Fateha to me before i go to bed. *.*

2010-12-16T21:26:00.007+08:00

When you started to reflect about your past. What's gonna happen next? I wonder. When things are not going anywhere. What should i do? I wonder. When you don't know which path you're going. It still keeps you wondering. Everything keeps me wondering nowadays. (: I'm not comparing. I just love the way it is now. But till when? Don't come to me and keep on repeating the same line. That's not the exact answer to everything. (: Or maybe i could just leave it hanging like this. Don't make any decision. I could just simply go anywhere i like. hah. Just not Dian. Okay crap. Out of a sudden feel like typing nonsense. And i think i miss someone. Just maybe. But to that someone of his, just to let you know, i'm not gonna ruin your relationship. He came up and just have a normal conversation. Not more. (= It feels nice to hear something from him again.

2010-12-15T00:14:00.003+08:00

When ever i think about the past, thank god, his the one who makes me stop myself from thinking. And for that, i choose not to stop myself from walking. Cause now, i have him right here in my heart. (=

© Maher Zain - For the Rest of My Life

2010-12-12T22:59:00.005+08:00

& Yes i love Him so much! Nothing beats him. (=

2010-12-09T01:11:00.001+08:00

2010-12-06T15:39:00.003+08:00

When I cannot sing my heart, I can only speak my mind.

What lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.

2010-11-23T03:18:00.002+08:00

Selamat Ulang tahun yang ke 24 MuhdRedzwanRoslan. Semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki dan dilindungi ALLAH selalu. Sorry if you didn't like that gifts. I swear, i'm abit fuckup in finding gifts nowadays. But we had conversations the day before; so i guess it's a right choice. *chuckles* once again Orge, HAPPY 24 BIRTHDAY!! =D

2010-11-15T15:09:00.002+08:00

Nice weekend after few days of arguements. Thankyou RedzwanRoslan! (=

2010-11-10T15:39:00.002+08:00

Call me a flirt. But when i'm with Someone, I am one FAITHFUL person.

2010-11-08T00:16:00.002+08:00

How would you know if a guy really loves you?

It's when he does EVERYTHING to make your relationship WORKS. And even if it doesn't, he still hope it does.

May the blessing shower us. i love you phatboi!

2010-10-31T17:11:00.004+08:00

Everyday, i fight back the urge to text you or talk to you. Telling myself that if you wanted to speak to me, YOU WOULD.

I want someone I can text nonstop. I want someone who will never get bored with me. I want to be able to wake up to a cute text message. I want to wrestle and let you win. I just want someone I can call my own.

2010-10-27T18:47:00.003+08:00

I might Hug other guys, Laugh with other guys, or hang out with other guys. But NONE of them will ever mean to me as much as you do.

2010-10-17T17:30:00.004+08:00

Have you ever talked about someone and all of a sudden, you catch yourself with a huge smile on your face?

Ans: I did! yes! recently. (x

2010-10-10T18:28:00.003+08:00

"It's very hard to find true love on this earth. I'm not a dreamer in that sense"

Finally, now i started to realize i can't stop myself from walking. Keep on hiding this feelings. You changed me in so many ways & for that i CHOOSE not to stop myself from loving you more. My world is yours now? (=

Afgan - Betapa Aku Cinta Padamu

2010-10-02T16:39:00.003+08:00

He is my past. Yes i do miss him or what so ever but deep down my heart only god knows what i'm dealing with.My feelings is no where. I choose to be in that box. Not to over come my fear and act as if i'm okay. If i could shout out loud and tell the whole world how much you've changed me, i would want to. And for what ever words that came out from you, i CHOOSE to love you in silence. Cause in silence there's no rejection.

Andand, thanks to my deardiary, because of you i kept every single feelings of mine away from him. I love it that way. (=

I see the question in your eyes

2010-09-30T18:11:00.005+08:00

I never imagined just how beautiful you'd be.

Oh my, how i wish i could express it to you like how i wrote it down in my deardiary.

2010-09-26T20:13:00.003+08:00

If that was a joke to you then it is. But not to me.

I'm not mad, i'm not gonna scream. I am fucking calm that morning. (:

2010-09-23T18:27:00.002+08:00

That fcuking top solitaire ring!!! =D

2010-09-22T16:46:00.003+08:00

The minute you think of giving up, think of a reason why you held on so long. There are times when it's better to choose to love a person in silence, for in silence you will find no rejection.

Biarkan Jatuh Cinta

2010-09-21T18:06:00.008+08:00

Girls are like buses. One goes and then another comes. But amongst all these buses, there is just one bus that takes you home. And you should not miss that bus. All the other buses are pointless. Only that one bus.

2010-08-26T18:09:00.002+08:00

My thoughts tend to sound better in books I didn't write, and in songs I didn't sing. Even then, sometimes there is no piece of literature, no song, no work of art that can really explain how you feel. There is a double-edge comfort in knowing that no one really knows.

2010-08-25T16:53:00.009+08:00

Sometimes, it's easier to pretend you don't care than to admit that.

IMISSHIM,i probably shouldn't but oh well ... Been days, obviously imy extremely bad.(x

2010-08-24T16:37:00.007+08:00

Don't worry you still look kiyut okay. And i do accompany you if you want me to. =D

Is my imagination running wild? Better pinch myself to see if i'm right. Is this just a fantasy or am i just make believin' i'm awake. Why am i dreaming? Don't want that night to fade away. I thought my eyes were closed but i'm in a dream awake.

PS: THNGS WON'T GO ANYWHERE. I'M DONE WITH IT.

Usher OMG Oh my Gosh Feat Will i am Official Music Video w Lyrics HQ ...

2010-08-19T15:18:00.008+08:00

I'm just not me. I shouldn't be throwing tantrum at you. I'm really really sorry, & i mean it bum.Sometimes, i just hate this feelings.I shouldn't be telling anyone but yet i blurted out the whole story to that someone.& for what ever things that happened , i miss my dad so much, i really really do.I can't do this anymore dad. I need you.

You're in the name of Love.

2010-08-15T17:44:00.005+08:00

Something about you is so ADDICTIVE

& I don't need fancy things.

2010-08-14T18:16:00.003+08:00

Annoying people like annoying orange!

Sometimes i feel like running away from my own family. They acting like a bitch!Ughh. God, save me man!

PS: I MISS THAT AHMAD GUY SO BADLY! (x

2010-08-11T16:48:00.000+08:00

Happy Fasting Everyone!

Lupe kan lah arakan dan rokokemas iye!!=D

2010-08-05T19:01:00.003+08:00

I love the way you LIE. (:

I'm a poor thing. Aren't i?

Shontelle - Impossible

2010-08-04T14:31:00.000+08:00

2010-07-31T14:56:00.000+08:00

That night RedzwanRoslan. (= Awesome.

2010-07-29T20:06:00.001+08:00

Thankyou Love. =D Im speechless.

2010-07-27T18:42:00.002+08:00

Sorry if at times i'm stubborn, impatient, moody, a crybaby, childish, negative, possessive, jealous, pain in the ass

But despite all that, I really love you. (x

2010-07-26T18:22:00.001+08:00

You sucha stalker. Fuck it! I hate you more now!

2010-07-25T05:49:00.005+08:00

Yes, it's my new hairdo. Faisal said mcm helmet laa deean .. xD Iskandar said mcm fringe thailand. Whatever it is, you guys love me still. Love me moreeee~~ xD I surprised him at his work place last night. I know i'm sweet .. Sweet like chocolate kan kan kan .. Oh! that chinese looking guy is fucking kiyut laa Ray oii !! Dah dalam tangan pun .. Tinggal nak racky-racky die ajee nie .. xP And not forgetting that server is fuccking charming too .. =D That Boat Quay guy is so gatal ... Adek taak minat laa abg .. Mataer kat sebelaa jgn nak main2 mate okay? xD Awesome night with dearest. It's a great meetup aft so long .. & you guys really "spin my head right round right round" .. HAHAHAHAHAA .. DONE!

He said "But preety oi" .. xD Funny you! Kinda miss someone right now. God, help me. I swear im gonna jump like a mad girl when i meet him (x

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Lotsa changes. Sorry. It's just you.

2010-07-23T14:14:00.005+08:00

Chopping my hair 2morro. I know you won't be liking it. 1word, sorry. =D & i'm not in a mood this days. Sorry everyone. I want my girlfriends plleeeeeaaassseeee ...

PS: Wuo ai shang ni le

2010-07-20T16:12:00.002+08:00

Just when it looks like i'm gonna get close, my lips mess up and my words don't flow. NO, i should have spoke up, see whats going on now. I'm choke up. Like i was sleeping and should have woke up. I ain't gonna let it end like this.

2010-07-19T16:31:00.001+08:00

If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do, and I will.

Full of nonsense ppl in this world. Stop telling and keep it to ourself. Can?

2010-07-15T15:12:00.000+08:00

Feeling Feeling nak go Botanic Garden. ANYONE? =D

2010-07-13T16:18:00.002+08:00

Thats how i want it to be. I know what ever i did between you & her is too much back then. But now, seriously, i got nothing in mind. I let go things willingly. (: It's up to you to believe me or not. I told you everything. & jangan ikot kan ego sangat .. Don't repeat the same thing again okay? (=

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Redzwan, i hate that medicine! It taste awful! & i swear im not gonna tell you if i fall sick again!

-.-"

PS: LIFE IS A JOURNEY. & LOVE IS WHAT MAKES THAT JOURNEY WORTHWHILE.

2010-07-12T16:47:00.003+08:00

How sweet of you Fatty! Thankyou for the surprises! Love ya truckLoads! *Blussh*

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Melyana naakkk tunnanngg!! Tk percaye gitu lorr .. Sesungguhnye I happy sangat sangat untuk you sayang .. INGAT! By left by right by hand by foot kad mesti sampai okay??!! =D

PS: RRIIIINNNDUUuUU ...

2010-07-11T12:29:00.004+08:00

Jb's trip was awesome. (: Happy Birthday darling. Happy Birthday Rohit. I miss him truck loads.

He said: The most precious possession that has ever come to a man in this world is a woman's heart. o.0 emmm .....

2010-07-08T17:43:00.002+08:00

I guess engagement is not a good thing. (:

So mummy, no engagement thingy for me okay?

2010-07-07T11:38:00.004+08:00

Thanks for the HorFun last night. (: Sorry if my words is too harsh. We're just friend. Normal plain friend. Not more.

2010-07-04T15:17:00.000+08:00

I Miss Him horr .. Monday come faster can ?

You & Me Everyday.

2010-07-03T02:10:00.005+08:00

I don't want to be your first love but i do want to be your last(:

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Bulan dah penuh!!! So RedzwanRoslan, don't you dare doing silly things at e end of every month. I'm gonna swing you like a crazy girl & it will drive us crazy!Remember that! (x Well i know i did look ugly when i boo-boo e other night and my voice is so orge-like. Sore throat killling me laa deyy .. But yet still, you sayang2 me .. ^__^* Oh! YES!! I'm gembeng, you know it. My heart is so fragile oke! (x

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I only trust when family ties the string. 2More days HuggiesDry! =D

2010-07-02T19:12:00.003+08:00

I'm serious. I just don't want you to know at e later stage. If you want to leave, do it now. =X

letto - sebelum cahaya

2010-07-01T15:33:00.000+08:00

Memori Duka - Sons of Adam

2010-06-30T02:09:00.001+08:00

Kway teow goreng kerang. Greentea. Red. Necklace. Bahulu. One fullerton. Valentine09. Surprises. I can't erase those memories, i just realize. (: thanks to this idiotic song. -.-"

2010-06-29T21:44:00.003+08:00

He looked, he smiled then he whispered, "You look great sayang". *blush*

2010-06-28T14:27:00.002+08:00

Sometimes a girl is gona be a girl

It's not an excuse, it's just how it is

Sometimes the wrong, don't know that they wrong

Sometimes the strong, ain't always so strong

Period. Menses. & bcause of that im being like this. Sorry. T__T

2010-06-26T04:00:00.006+08:00

If i behave wud i get a kiss at the end of the nite? ^^

Things that other guys can't do for me but he can. He sway me like no other can ever do. I lost an idiotic one but i never regret it because i've got somebody who is much much much BETTER and it is none other than you RedzwanRoslan.

Kelly Clarkson - a moment like this (lyrics)

2010-06-24T16:39:00.000+08:00

2010-06-24T16:01:00.002+08:00

From the moment you walked into my world.

That morning was awesome bb. Yes, i knw, you're not drunk that night and you stays at Cck.(x

Taufik Batisah - One Last with Lyric

2010-06-22T03:12:00.000+08:00

2010-06-19T05:06:00.004+08:00

Someone delivered alot of kisses at Blk21 ard04:50am. (x Oh well, you still kissed this smellyfiona ..=D

2010-06-18T02:33:00.002+08:00

I know that i'm not perfect and nor can u claim to be either, but there's only one thing, believe me, when I say that I want to be by your side, to hold your hand, to treasure you in the morning and in the noon-tide,
to be next to you, to be held close to your heart,
to comfort you, dry your tears and calm your most frightening fears, to fight your battles and show no shame to scream my love for you out loud all over the land

Engkaulah Ibu cover by PuteraQazLuka.wmv

2010-06-17T00:54:00.001+08:00

I know it's hard to go through things like this. We're in the same boat cousin, mine is much more worser. We will go through it together. Pray and hope things will go smoothly.

2010-06-15T20:12:00.003+08:00

I do rather choose to be with him than you (:

You're nothing. Sorry.

DoinkDoink! I Love You hor.

2010-06-14T16:24:00.004+08:00

Love or Infatuation? = Obsession

I'm leaving you or I Love You? = I'm loving it

Polka dot or Stripes? = Polka Dot

Moon or Sun? = Sun

Tree or Grass? = Tree

Rain or Shine? = Shine

Chocolates or Sweets? = Sweets

Cookies or Brownies? = Cookies

NECKLACE or RING?

BAIK BAIK SAYANG --- BY WALI BAND

2010-06-10T21:09:00.001+08:00

Imiss you like hell shit. 4more days to go, i'll be visiting my one and only. Endure deeAN ..

2010-06-09T21:18:00.001+08:00

I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up; it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be.

2010-06-09T02:30:00.002+08:00

Penguin Diner 2 drive me crazy. Shit! Deean giveup! -.-"!! Nak buat pizza pulak!

So mentel! xD

2010-06-08T16:19:00.004+08:00

Tegok punyer tegok, nampak gambar2 lame . Don't mind me love. =)

PS: I want the old deean. (:

2010-06-06T20:07:00.001+08:00

I can never stay this way forever. Been wanting for someone to take me away. Someone who will bring a good impact to my life. But it's pretty hard when this feeling is going nowhere. I can't do anything much, I've been hinting time and again but you never seem to catch it. Sometimes, i feel like walking away, far far away from you. Stop those feelings, draw a line in between us & keep on saying "You're not mine" repeatedly. But i have to admit here, i can't. The word is I CAN'T. I can't manage to put u aside, ignore those msgs and erase those moments with you. As what everyone knows, i can't put my ego away. I'm stubborn and will never give others a chance. But it seems different ever since you filled up my life each day. The feeling is just different when i open up my eyes and the first thing to know is, your messages. It put a big fucking smile on me. And you really sway me like before. Now, i'm afraid. Afraid if one day you will leave me, see you walking away with someone you love. Moreover if it has got to do with matters of the heart. I really can't imagine if one day i have to walk all alone again, go through those pain and have to get you out of me.

2010-06-05T00:39:00.003+08:00

I Like It. It's different oke? Get me Eric? Im your princess Ariel! (x

Are you serious? I don't know ... =D

2010-06-03T11:01:00.001+08:00

SpanishMalay? Ohh .. Sungguh lawa skali .. Bb, sorry psl susah kan u lagik .. -.-"

2010-06-02T03:42:00.003+08:00

Sesungguhnye, aku tersadar dari tidurku. & blog is the first thing that came inside my mind . Well, had a great dinner/supper at shiraz with dearestANO yesterday. It was fucking great when we both sat along the CQSteps, reminiscing our memories .. (x Shit! & another thing was, Terkenang saat saat pertama kali si dia & aku bertemu.(x Sungguh kelaka skali.

Oh ya! And ppl, Thanks to the can't stop sneezing day till i caught a flu ey .. -.-" Sungguh irritating sekali ...

2010-06-01T17:37:00.001+08:00

Meet her!!! Will meet her again later!!! (=

2010-05-31T19:31:00.003+08:00

Happy Working Iskandar. (:

& it's fucking hard for you to answer it.

-.-"

Oh yea, I went into the wrong toilet at Tampines Mrt just now. Malunyeee ...

2010-05-30T13:20:00.002+08:00

I wish we could go back in time and have a second chance to fix a mistake.(:

No, i don't wish to .. Let us stay this way .. You & me are just friend .. We will meet up soon aite!(: Orchid Park is the place ..

2010-05-29T18:11:00.002+08:00

Apit ... Im wearing this dress right now .. Click and upload once taken aite ... (: Psst: this is the second time im wearing it eyy ..

Promise fiona ? Oh well, this fiona of yours is very gatal ... Biasa bro, kate sgl mah ... xD

2010-05-27T14:48:00.002+08:00

Ogres!!! I love you ogres!! xD!!! Awesome night with Rays Darling ... Shrek is so happy ending story! I love it too!!! Oh god, Im loving it much2!!! hahahahahaha ... Saye sayang kan dia, saya cinta kan dia sangat sangat .. Shrek Shrek Shrek!! xD Jom pegi Bowling Ray Family??!!

It's not that hard to say it bb ... You ended up saying it last night .. xD

2010-05-26T12:10:00.002+08:00

Malunyeee ... The whole lot of ns guys were looking at me .. -.-" & thanks bb ... Mintak tlg ckit pon cannot .. Hmpppff!! Shrek tonight with cousins, can't wait! Can't wait!!

'You such a manjer cat ...' Yes i am ... Told you from the start, clarke quay steps, Remember?xD

2010-05-25T01:27:00.003+08:00

I'm Sensible!(:

Your positive traits: You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad. You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice. Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak. Your negative traits: Money is... very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships. If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander... You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset. Your ideal partner: Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you. Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave. A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart. Your dating style: Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant. Your seduction style: Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy. Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either. Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time. Tips for the future: Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you. Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best. Lighten up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions. Best color to attract mate: Pale blue Best day for a date: Friday

2010-05-24T22:22:00.001+08:00

BB, fetch me and bring me home ... T___________T

2010-05-23T12:34:00.002+08:00

Want to, but I can’t help it

I love the way it feels,It’s got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real

I need it when I want it, I want it when I don’t

Tell myself I’ll stop everyday, knowin’ that I won't

I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it

Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it

I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true

Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you

I can barely move but I like it

And it’s all because of you

And it’s all because…

Never get enough,She’s the sweetest drug

2010-05-22T16:04:00.005+08:00

I am not and will not be laughing at you babe ... Shit comes anytime .. It seems like you're blaming me for not accepting everything that has happened .. Yes! I admit it, i can't .. But just so you know, there's a reason to why i do certain things .. You're hurt? So am i .. I've experienced more hurt than you, way more, you have no idea ... Although it was only a year with him, within that whole yr, i carried all his shit .. Im stubborn, i did not agree to what ppl said and wanted to show the world that i was making the right decision, but actually i wasn't .. Left all my siblings for that idiot, & i regretted ... Kept crying, hoped that he would change for the better, but NOOoo ... He will NOT, NEVER change, trust me ... All he wants is entertainment and girlfriends or another word 'buat pakai nye pmpn'(sorry don't mind me) all at the same time .. Maybe you can face it but not me, not any longer .. I used to love him more than anyone did .. Treasured him, appreciated him, kept him like a diamond ... I'd sacrificed alot for him, & only god knows what i'd gone through with him & what my heart said about him ... GOd is fair darling, he heard all my prayers and for that as day goes by, i started to let him off little by little and at last, here i am, standing for my rights and not to trust jerks like him ... The one who has been going through ups & downs with me, the only one who knows how hard it was to let go someone that i totally loved ... Now, you're in my position, I can't stop you, I can't blame you, ppl always say, it takes two hands to clap .. (= All the best with him, hope everything will turn out to be as what you want .. I will not bother you, not anymore .. You have to think, you're just 17, a year younger than i am ... We are still young, don't let ppl take us for granted ... & don't regret with whatever decision you've made ... Oh ya, doesn't mean we love that someone, we have to own them ... (= & to RedzwanRoslan, thankyou so much for helping me .. If you dont stop me, i will still go on with the plans .. Sayang you bb!! & i smell like Mermaid Ariel kan3??? xD

2010-05-20T14:54:00.002+08:00

Sesungguhnye muke ku yg fhugly nie pon ader org nak tgk .. xD

PS: Amcm bro??? Dapat kacip fatimah tak??? xD

2010-05-19T17:55:00.004+08:00

He used to tell me this, Each night before you sleep, count the stars above the sky and you will find a smile from me to you .. Just for you dian ... Distance will never seperate two hearts (=

Sayang, i miss you so badly ..

How i wish i could run away from everyone, stay with him && go through his pain together .. Now rohit can't deny things .. Rohit love me more than he loves shurah .. xD & he just realized that he is losing someone ehem! good like me ... He misses all my craps, memekak-ness & my irritating hindi songs ...Oh god! Im tuning crazy right now! I was trembling when i opened up his letter ... hahahahahahaa ... And only god knows how im feeling right now ... ((=

No wait! or shud i say "sampai hati ke?" ^.^ ... Iyyeee bb, i samapai hati ... xD Oh yea .. I love milk so much .... Gilerr babi ah ... Bole jadi babilemas hor .. xD

2010-05-18T14:00:00.005+08:00

Listen, I got the emails, I got the texts, the answers still the same, it's just the way it is, I gotta go.

You can get talking, baby I'm walking away.

Bb's Cinta kene operation ... Die merajok sebab bb lepas mara pat die ... xD

When Love takes over, you can't deny. Now love me right, like i know you can. We could lose it all.

2010-05-17T14:16:00.004+08:00

Say and keep on saying .. Nomatter what, im not gonna let him off like that!! Remember this huh! Mcm pepatah matrep; ader pegi ader balik. HAHAHAHAHAHHAA ...

Stooopiiiddd fucker~

Ibby is so fucking sweet last night ... xD Which i don't really know what is happening ... So let it be ... Bb, jangan jealous eyy ... Die taak copycat ... xD

2010-05-16T13:24:00.003+08:00

When things goes Wrong, Nothing goes Right ...

True, what shikin told me ... Sometimes its best to let things kept unsaid ... Never did i once thought of doing that to you, but you really test my patient ... Once or twice i can close one eye but till when? Yes, i can understand you're just a lil'kid, but when ure in our shoes then you will understand why we didn't agree with the plans ... I do feel bad and for that, aju, i want to apologize for doing that to your lil'sister ... & now i want to be alone ... Just me, my room and diary .. I miss you rohit ... I really really in need of you ... If you are with me i wouldn't be like this .. I keep every single things to myself and only god knows how im feeling right now .. I only want you right now, be right beside me and make me smile like before ... It's painful rohit when i have to go through life alone, Without you, who always guide me through all my suckies journey .. I keep counting down the big day of yours and look up to see you again right infront of me .. Rohiitt , I can only cry and cry and keep writting letters to you .. But thats not what i want .. I want you now, now , now & forever ... Make me smile, make me laugh, make me angry make me look silly .... February2011 Come faster ... I want him, only him ... T.T

2010-05-14T18:57:00.002+08:00

I can't express my feelings girls ... Only god knows how im feeling right now ..

I can only wait and see the outcome, everything is in god hands ...

And like what i've said, it needs two hands to clap .. He's not mine now & forever ... Things has change, we are not fated & im accepting the fact ... People come and go, and it's still hard for me to soften up my heart ... Like mummy always tell me, good guys are hard to find, be patient and let god decide ... This is what im doing ... I packed every sgl thing abt him last night and wants to burn it soon ... I dont want to see anything got to do with him again, im so serious abt this ...

2010-05-13T13:16:00.003+08:00

bb ... Ini last oke??!! Im speechless ... Can't say much ...

Only god knows what happened last night .. =)

Thankyou RedzwanRoslan!

& I promise you, im gonna be nicceee .... =D

2010-05-12T14:37:00.002+08:00

I've been craving for Hor Fun at AdamsCorner .. T_____________T

ANd to the 'plus chop comfirm dpt', kau go on ckp aper yg kau nak .. Aku tk ckp pape pon dgn kwn2 aku ... dorang yg tau sendiri .. hahahahahaha ... Sampai bile tu pukimak nak belet crite! INGAT! Aku tkkan lepas kan die mcm gitu!

2010-05-11T18:17:00.002+08:00

What ever u did is too much .. You're being too selfish .. You don't think of others .. This is what you call youself a sister, S.I.S.T.E.R??? Where's your responsibility??? If you hate your own lil'sister then don't drag father along .. He's old, you treat him like a little boy??? Come on, he sacrifice alot for you, whatever you wants he will sure get it for you sooner or later ... What did you give him? SHIT???? YES, ITS SHIT RIGHT NOW ... You left him for almost one month! ONE MONTH tau!! ... And did you ever think that whatever you've talked to me before???? Put your ego away and think! Sampai bile org tue nie bleh hidop???!! Die bukan mude ey ... Die bkn nye tak sakit ... Die tu ader sakit! Klau nak lepas tangan, bilang teros terang ... Tkmo lari dari problem ... No use running away, your problem is still there ... And sorry to say this, you're 23 but you dont even use your fucking brain! Come on, wake up! I can't stand this anymore, enough is enough .. Pity kak an!! She's suffering!

2010-05-11T11:45:00.002+08:00

RedzwanRoslan from work ride down to Tampines, my crib, just to get for me a bloody Fresh Milk last night .. Can't you just imagine, he ran away from work and do that stupid thing for me?? o.O Oh my ... You shouldn't be doing that b ... Now girlfriends said that i'm bad ... -.-" And you don't need to get me a Fresh Milk everyday huh ... Mummy can get it for me .. =) & now i can proudly say something good about you ... Awww, You're so sweet bb ... xD && what ever name giving to be saved in my phone is the right one that i should be calling YOU ... =D

PS: My Sweet Lil'Old BOYFRIEND.

2010-05-06T17:30:00.002+08:00

Im stuck to Halaman Asmara song by Awie & ZianaZain. xD Keep on repeating this songs on youtube.

It's been so long that i didnt get a chance to meet aju, and when she called me for meeting up, it was awesome! We got alot to update and i miss those day with her ... Last night with aqiem and few other girlfriends was awesome too ... But i hate it when someone who just know me ask for ciggy .. You asked once then twice and i cabot from you .. Muke tak malu ke? You're not even a close friend of mine and muke slamber mintak2 .. Hello! You're working & im not ey .. Takkan tkde duit kak? hahahahahahahahaha ... Nie ah minah2 ... Nak party, tapi tkde duit .. Blearrrgghhh ... Menyampah nye aku ... My girlfriends are much more better .. ader class ... hahahahahaahhahaahahahha ... Oh yea, redzwanroslan, im not a merlion that night ah .. And pleasee, jangan nak complain2 dgn mummy can? Suke ah tgk ur 'adek' kene mara? -.-"!!

&& I miss alot of people right now ...

2010-05-05T16:03:00.004+08:00

IronMan2 is freaking shit!! SupperB!! hahahahahahha .. I want to say you guys are COCK, for telling me that 'ironman mepek sia deean ... Tak yah tgk, waste money je ...' && redzwanroslan, lain kali jgn dengar ckp org ... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ... Kan da kene belikan 'Tom & Jerry' ice cream for me ... xD *insidejoke* and oh ya! Yesterday it really show me that kakak An tk tau makan ... Makan besepar, ader sise2 makanan pat tepi mulut die, mcm budak2 tau ... xD I really enjoyed my night with them ... Thanks love, for tolerating my nonsense, menyenyeh and all sort of stuff .. hahahahahahaha ... Love you guys truck loads!!! Not forgetting, i loooovvveeee to be pampered!!! =D

Taaaadaaa!!! Nampak tak???!! xD